'stay calm, stay neutral.' i keep telling myself.



the last day of august 2008.
so i've come so far and yet feels so near.




friends might not understand why and how im feeling this way.
but i just cant help it.
it's not i cant face it but i dont want to.
i dont want to have any chances of feeling negatively.
nobody will know exactly how i feel cos it's hard.
it's hard, thats why i dont expect anyone to understand fully too.
it's just me and i control how i feel and i know exactly what i want to do.
it's over and i knew it long long time ago.
it just takes time yeah.
and im not back to square one, so friends, No worries =)
thanks for all of ur concern!!! =)
im too into my studies now so i dont have alot of time to think of other stuffs.
it's just the memories and i've to live with them cos they're not leaving me.






i wanted to upload cookie's pictures today but it seems like my phone got some problems.
so i'll upload them when i have time again.
oh well, cookie slept in our room yesterday night.
so cute lah. the whole night until morning when my dad came into our room. =)
Cookie is so cute.
and i think he thinks his name is "good boy" instead of "cookie".
haha. he responds to me when i call him good boy but he responds to my mum when my mum called him "cookie".
so does he really know what he is called? i wonder.
oh. and my cousin gave him a shirt and he really wears it.
he wasnt uncomfortable and he slept with it the whole night and this morning.
we brought him to the market in the morning and we got comments from people that he is cute.
oh well, maybe it is cos he was wearing that colourful shirt. =)
haha. oh yah.
i bought a hello kitty pencil lead and hello kitty eraser and a marie pencil case and a bear pen.
it's damn cute. =)
thats all.
gotta go do my work now.
im doing my revision at a slow and constant pace and i hope i'll be able to complete revision with all the tests every week.

love.




im so scared now!
im scared of promos and i totally cannot do any questions for organic chemistry!
shit!!!
argh. and still got econs project to do!
why the teacher still take up OUR precious time to do this type of project.
dont know what they thinking.
gotta go rush our my project part.


thank you teachers and my friends for giving me a chance to take up the role.
i'll do my best. =)




sometimes i think it's best to remain neutral.


that scene keep appearing in my mind and it's scary.
im scared.
really scared.




面对生离死别， 我是否够勇敢？




人生短短几十年，是应该好好珍惜的。
我需要经过那么多才慢慢地了解到我真的不应该埋怨什么，真的。
对很多事情， 我的确很不满但是我学会了一笑而过。
很多事情，说说就算了吧。

第三次面对这样的事情，或许我已经不害怕了。
站在那， 心还是会不停地跳
看到那根本不像照片里的她， 我不禁想到：人老了，美丽外表真根本算不上什么。
一个人可以很美很美但是，老了，还不就是那个样子。
看着她， 看到长辈们都哭红了眼，
心， 酸了。
这是大家都预料到的事情，但我们都希望会有奇迹。
可是，这次， 已经没有奇迹了。
我们真的要让她走。


希望您还好，记得我和您打过mahjong， 那是几年前的事了吧。
谢谢您帮忙带大我的爸爸。
谢谢您使我来到这世界。
谢谢您让我领悟到了许多。
谢谢您让我成为别人羡慕的对象因为我能见到您，和您相处。

希望您走好。
我不会忘记您。
您会活在我们的心里。








Thank You.




define the word RIGHT for me.

and i feel that everyday seems unreal to me.
am i making the right choice?
doing the right thing?


and who wouldnt wish they were those girls?
so do i.




it's hard to find that feeling back again




im sorry lovely, for neglecting u and not being as close as we used to be?
you're really nice.
sry i cant be there for u everytime.
thanks for being so understanding.
our friendship can go further, yah?
thanks for being so nice to me.
and i really feel bad!
anyway, really thank you.


some things i just cant spell out.




trip to malaysia










HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!
i love you so much!!!



Hello LOVELIES!!!
today is my dearest mother's birthday.
went home after school.
bathed, collected the roses and headed to my aunt's prawn mee shop.
we surprised mum with the flowers and of cos, the appearances of her two beloved daughters.
oh well, maybe she's surprised?
but she didnt cry.
we waited for her to knock off from work.
my little cousins are damn sweet.
haha. they bought presents for my mum.
Moon went to stick the inside of the card on a piece of cardboard then, cannot see the nice nice cover of the card. haha.
she wants ppl to see her handwritings instead! so cute la!
my aunt very nice to my mum also. =)
oh well, my sisters and i bought a SK diamond necklace for mother too.
she so shocked la. cos she didnt expect us to buy so expensive one.
my sis's boyfriend bought my mother a cd.
hmm. thats all.
tonight going to have dinner. havent decide the place yet.
i wont be in Singapore tmr.
so, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!! an advanced wish okay. =)
love you so much, my country. =)
im a good citizen. haha.


i'll blog more photos when im back okay.

havent you learnt your lesson?


this song in my blog is nice. must listen. and i love chinese songs.








do you remember how much i love flowers?




IM IN SCHOOL NOW!!!
haha. oh well. now is the two hours break. self-study and chinese.
im wasting my precious time but i've got no choice.
the school is obviously not as comfortable as my cosy home.
ahhh. later got netball training!
im so damn scared. i hope i wont get scoldings.
i pray i'll be fine after training.
i hope that i'll be happy after training.
i hope i'll improve and learn new things after training.
so stressed. oh dear.
hmm.
alrighty. that day xinyi was saying that she wanted to asked me about him until she went to read my 3rd august 2008 post. haha.
hmm. thats the most emo post after so many months, yea.
and i certainly agree.
yupps. and im ALMOST reaching the finishing line. almost.
a few more months and POOF!!! everything will be fine.
oh well, need to study alrdy. i've been sleeping for long hours!



buck up, OJY! =)


happy birthday zhi lei!


THANK YOU ALICIA FOR UR PRESENT!!!
THANK YOU YUHENG FOR THE COOKIES!




HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONG JIA YAN!!!
finally, this day came.
hmm. thanks to those who wished me and helped me to celebrate this special day of mine.



last year i had a birthday celebration.
this year, i had FOUR celebrations!
so, i won this 'battle' right?
i was afraid to face this day a few weeks ago.
i still dont blame you for leaving me though it really hurts.
i understand that it's just that we are not meant to be.
i dont have the same type of feathers that u have.
the love that we shared in the past, i can no longer find it anywhere else.
i dont know whats the feeling of loving someone anymore.
the definition of love that i usually defined, what is it?
i dont need u to be back cos i know u are happy now.
you were once a part of my life but not now.
so yupps, have fun with your life.
and im leaving u in a faraway 'land' in me.
thank you for your love and i hope i never see u again.
just take good care of yourself and your family.




im seventeen but im still me.
i'll be back with photos tonight, hopefully.



thanks for reading.




This morning, i was so surprised!
my grandmother came!!! oh my.
i love her alot!!! =)
and my mum bought a birthday cake for me so that i can celebrate with my grandma!
=) very happy eh.
im growing fat! so many cakes. haha.
THANK YOU GRANDMA FOR UR HONGBAO!!!
THANK YOU NEIGHBOUR FOR THE PRESENT!!!
THANK YOU MY SISTERS FOR THE PRESENT!!!
THANK YOU TERRY FOR THE NECKLACE!!!
here u go...






I LOVE MY GRANDMA and my MOTHER!!!





went to meet xinyi today at esplanade library.
but no space so we went to shop.
then the rest of the daredevils came!!!
i was shocked lah. i saw these three girls walking over! so familiar!!
we went to HANS to have dinner.
photos.

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