Tuesday ♥
this afternoon, my younger sister told me that our great-grandma is in the hospital. ICU.oh dear. mother went to hospital straight away after her work.we waited for mum to come back and she told us the doctors were still trying to save her.and by that time, i knew my dad will be very sad. he's very close to her.she'll tell him her feelings and everything and he'll be there to listen.we'll only visit her once in a while. when we're very young, she'll come to our house and stay.so she watched us grow, some sort.the last time i went to visit her was a few mths back when she was in the hospital too as she fell down. she sort of recongnized us and she cried when she saw us. when we left, i knew she didnt want us to leave.then, mum came back before dad. mum then went to drive dad home after mopping the floor etc. when dad came back, i saw his face, his eyes. he stared at me, waited for me to call him.my mouth didnt open when i saw him. i also dunno why. i dunno what to say to him.in the end, i called him. "Pa"i asked if they are going to visit great grandma after that.they said no cos no visitors are allowed after eight pm.i cant visit her tmr morning too cos cannot go in to see her. we dont have thr room keys.outside also cannot see her.hais.my dad came into my room and told me to be prepared that lao ma is gg.i knew he was sad.i dont know what to say. i just replied: "i know"i hope she will get well. please please.the first funeral i attended is jie cai's. and i dont want to attend any more for now.pls.it's so not gd. i mean the feeling.yucks. i hate it.and i never want doomsday to come. pls dont come. pls dont take away our lives. pls heal her. please... =(
♥JIAYAN's @ Tuesday, June 03, 2008
